Twenty, Here I Come :)

It is the last day for me for being teenie...

I don’t know what will happen in my future life, in ‘head 2’ I mean...

Does it wonderful? Can I reach my dream? My love?

Can I go abroad and find my future husband? Or life will just so so: me, as woman, stay here forever and never do anything and feel regret in rest of my life?

I hope that it doesn’t happen in me, but everything is possible...

Life, is mysterious, but God always make it wonderful, whatever it is

All we do is just follow His path and we will find something new that we will never expect before

Hufft, I feel that I grow too fast and I don’t have time to do everything that I want

Or maybe I had it but I never did anything useful in my life?

I remember every time in my past, when I was in kindergarten, when I was cried so loud so my dad couldn’t go to his workplace because I was always saw at him to make sure that he didn’t go anywhere.

I remember when first time I learned to bike on my own bike and I jumped into drain near my house and my dad came over and helped me with his strong arm...

I remember my first day in my elementary school that I came late because I just arrived from Jakarta in order to my grandpa’s funeral

I remember my day when I moved to my new elementary school, met many new friend, 5 years together with happiness and childishness, and then I graduated from elementary school and attend in 5 Junior High School, met so many friends and they are still be my best friends until now J It was a wonderful moment and I want to through that moment again and when I graduated from junior high, I was attend senior high that felt terrible in the first time but very lovable in the end... 

As I ever wrote in maybe almost 2 years ago, in the senior high I won’t to be older and grow up. I want everything still remain this, I want time never moving forward... I always want time to be backward so I can through my wonderful moment and I can be a child forever. It just one thing that I can’t deny: I can't fight with the time. I grow up as fast as I never notice about time. And time always goes, everything goes, till now...

Tomorrow, I am going to be a 20 years old girl. One question that I always says since my 16th birthday was: What will happen in a year being blablabla? Today, I ask the same question, which is very touching because I am heading 20, not only add one age in my life but also give me one reflection about what I did and what will I do next. But still, tomorrow is a hope, hope will always stay in the future.

Bye bye nineteen, you always be wonderful for me, I can do anything that I never do before. I can be a fabulous woman, at least for myself, because I can decide something that very difficult and I am happy with that. And last but not least:

Twenty, here I come J

In front of library, faculty of psychology UGM, December 5th 2011 16:44